I would not exactly be able to claim the name "Allison Beach" unless I continuously changed my mind. I think I have heard somewhere that the average college student changes their major three times throughout their college career. If your name is Allison Beach, on average you change your mind/major about three times a semester..every semester coming around full circle to the major which you declared you would graduate with ever since the seventh grade.
Always beginning with Fashion Merchandising (always wanted to do PR in the world of fashion..) usually beginning to think of something in the world of health such as health promotion or nursing. I fight a constant internal battle between these two career choices. One being safe always guaranteeing a job and a steady income. The other a little less secure, but something which I am most definitely passionate about.
I wish I could say that these were the only two things I switched my major to at any point in time throughout my college career. Not even close to the truth. I probably have had at LEAST ten different majors, always coming back to Fashion Merchandising..of COURSE!
When I came up to this big city for the summer, there was a fear in me that I may not like it here. This was such a frightening concept for me, because everything I have ever wanted I saw in this city. So many opportunities, so many things to do. I halfway expressed this fear, never ever ever ever expecting that this could actually become reality.
The first few weeks I was absolutely in love with this city. It was a little lonely, but I was sure once I start my internship surely I will meet tons of amazing people, It just takes time. (after all, when do I have issues meeting people??) Well mix that with only working two days a week at my internship (which consisted of 4 girls), and having no roommate. I learned this city can be very lonely, and we all know I don't do well with limited social interaction.
On top of that, my best friends from school paid me a lovely visit. I think my unhappiness here peaked the week before they got here, for a couple different reasons. Probably because I had not been home or seen really anyone close to me in over a month, and at the time I was a little less than happy at my internship. I had an awesome week with my friends, and eventually sent them back south like geese in the wintertime.
Eating NY pizza in chinatown on a random door stoop the night my friends arrived!
The Day they left I had a countdown of the time left until I made my return to Georgia. I was convinced I wanted to move back to Georgia, change my major and take classes to start nursing school after I graduated, and live in GA FOREVER.
The first day back to work was probably the worst day I have had all summer. I literally felt like I was doing useless work, like there wasn't even a point in me being there. That day (no joke) I sat at my computer and stared at it for THREE HOURS, because there was not anything for me to do. I have a major pet peeve of not being busy. So this was a disastrous day.
The very next day at work was probably the best day I had experienced at my internship all summer. This put me in complete question mode. I thought, what if the reason I do not like it here is because I do not exactly know what the people above me do? I figured that was a HUGE possibility, and after that day things just started falling into place.
The following sunday when I had to answer the question "What has your biggest fashion lesson learned been this summer?" The only thing that came to my mind was PERSEVERANCE. Which normally I am pretty good with, but I need to always have that quality. You must have faith that things will eventually turn around and fall into place. Sometimes it just takes a bit longer than you would like.
The fact that I am a HUGE planner does not help my situation AT ALL. I always have to know what I am going to be doing for the next ten years RIGHT NOW. This is a great quality in that I am very motivated, and driven. But it is a horrible quality in that if things do not go according to plan..its no good.
I wish I could say I knew what was coming for the time I have left here in the city. The fact is that I do not, and I need learn to let things fall into place and let life run its course right now. But I guess it never hurts to be prepared.
After all they say "if you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans.."
well if nothing else, I'm glad I can give him a chuckle.
<3 Allison
